Office Diariez……….

Okay so I’m extremely excited this afternoon!! Well you see its normal to get excited on things but hey!!!!imagine having an awful morning because you think your boss is seeing you as incompetent and you actually think that you are full of sh*t and that you never did the assignment as expected so you just sit in your office staring at your computer hoping that your boss will call you for discussion but then they don’t and because you don’t have much belief in yourself either you freeze in your spot and suddenly everything else jus irritates you!

*okay, i need a sip of water and a breather**

Great so tic toc tic toc its lunchtime, your boo calls you to step out and grab something but you are still in your grumpy state and you wish your phone was actually off so that no human being even communicates…well at least the boss!that’s all i needed but it never happened!

So i go out for lunch, boo notices there’s something wrong(like he always does) so i realize this could be the chance for me to vent out and i vomit my frustrations and being my system support he tries to bring my mind at ease and help me calm down. well, it helped a bit but stilllll!!! i was dying of a zero self esteem at this point.

Fast forward, lunch is over and that drive back to the office is slowly killing me inside despite the jokes being flown around by those around me. I’m oblivious of all the laughter going on  and am just thinking….back to hell in a few!!

I get back,quickly check my email to see a new mail but nothing!!!!anxiety, distress,my mind is going insane! i couldn’t take it anymore. Whether my work was shabby or not, at least i needed to know.

With false confidence i arise from my seat,walked hastily to my boss’s office,i knock…and all of a sudden,with new gush of fear,panic, hopes of all hopes, i pray that shes not in….. “come in”

i swear that voice almost made me fall down and feign a still death!!!!

With a a fake smile, wobbly courage, i enter. “Have a sit, Halima?” “its YASMINE madam,” “Oh sorry i keep forgetting Yasmine!! and now that I’ve seen you lemmi quickly check the work you sent yesterday i have been too busy i forgot”

WAIT, did i just hear she forgot?haaaaaaleeeellluuuyyyaaa! This is even better and far from what I’d been killing myself for the whole damn  godamnday!!!! madam, i can actually forgive you now for calling me Halima, but next time i wont take it well …..lol! confidence reloaded! you see, i knew i had done a good job,but her silence, or at least what i thought it was drained all my confidence!!

So i sit there, she goes through the document and yeah, small caps errors, confirmations ,no major editing and dang shes through!!!! ” Oh Yasmine, your command of language is really good!This is very good just avoid capitalizing some words but this is good!”

NOOOOO!!! I cant even breathe properly…….she actually remembered my name and at the same time complimented my work??! ohhh this is where i start growing wings and fly lol But seriously guys I’m  ecstatic!!!! to think i was down the whole  whole  damn time since morning and then i just get this??? wouldn’t your head bust? hahaha

Soo in short, my confidence is back on track….efff what i felt before in fact its triple now hahah my head be bulging as i type this. I’m happy. Of course  we don’t always have to wait for people to appreciate our work or us  us but when its done at an unexpected time it boosts your confidence level to heights you never imagined especially for people like me who are struggling to yet achieve maximum confidence in themselves . I guess my day and day’s activities are gonna be as positive with this newly attained energy!!!

Penning out now, ADIOS!!!!